Greetings from my writer's virtual road trip! I'm pleased to report that I reached my first stop, which was to complete the first draft of a speculative fiction manuscript I've had knocking about in my head for a very long time. I'm a slow and not very prolific writer, so managing to accumulate nearly 80,000 words of what my critique group has promised me is not total garbage feels like a big deal. So I spent a day or two congratulating myself.
Then the hitchhiker showed up. It played out something like this:
(twenty-something female wearing white t-shirt and jean cutoffs slides into passenger seat)
Hitchhiker: Hey, you mind if I ride along?
Me: (by nature, almost pathologically polite) Sure, if you want to. There's room.
HH: Where are we going?
Me: I'm figuring that out. I just finished the first draft of a manuscript--
HH: Cool! Tell me about it.
Me: (suddenly self-conscious) Uh, it's a sequel to a novel I wrote a while back. It takes place in a near-future Earth setting, after fires...burned...a bunch of stuff. (shuts mouth before rambling nonsensically about aliens and/or unicorns, neither of which appear in said manuscript)
HH: (brushes neon-pink bangs out of eyes) Okaaay... So, is the first book published?
HH: (raises pierced eyebrow) You spent months of your life writing a sequel to a book that's not even published yet?
Me: (dabs sweat from upper lip) I guess so.
Me: I wanted to see if I could do the story justice.
HH: (takes a long drink of her Mountain Dew Big Gulp) So, writing is a hobby for you?
Me: Not exactly. I mean, I'd like for it to be more than that. But it's a tough business. And a lot of us who write fiction accept that we don't it for the money.
HH: Pffft. Tell that to Stephen King.
Me: (forces a smile) He's kind of a special case.
HH: And JK Rowling. And James Patterson. And Jodi--
Me: I get it. And I do have a published novel. I'm just not very good at selling books.
HH: You have a kid in college, right? And another one soon to be?
Me: (not at all surprised that she somehow knows this) Yes.
HH: Don't you think it's time to give up this writing thing and get a real job?
Me: Maybe. (bumps head on steering wheel while trying to curl up in fetal position)
This is the mental space I've been in for a week or so. Fun stuff, right? The good news is, now that I'm older and hopefully wiser, it's slightly easier for me to shrug off the negativity and see the situation with a less critical eye. Gaining perspective is helpful, too. Have you ever looked out the rear window during a road trip--after a long, gradual incline, for example--and been amazed at how far you've come without even realizing it?
You are so clever. A hitchhiker for your virtual road trip - perfect. The hitchhiker's character - wonderful. If the dialogue in your novel is of similar calibre to the dialogue in this post, you have absolutely nothing to worry about.
Congratulations on completing your first draft, Jenny.
Thank you, Karen. You are too kind!Delete
I agree with what Karen said. And you should try and hoick that hitchhiker out the door (and then tell me how to do it *wink*).ReplyDelete
Thank you, AJ. I'll let you know if I figure out a sure-fire method. (Although there probably is no such thing.) And thanks to you I have learned a new word: hoick!Delete
Hello Jenny! Brilliant piece. One of the things that holds us back as writers is fear. Fear of rejection, fear that readers won't like our book . . . You're a good writer, it's obvious by this post. Get your work professionally edited and publish your work. Just remember that Stephen King, J.K. Rowling and every marvelous writer has received negative remarks about their work. There's no book universally loved by everyone and remember that there are plenty of trolls out there waiting for the next author to pounce on––not worth taking personal. There are great people out there willing to give us constructive criticism, because they want to see us grow as authors, but there are also those who just want to see us squirm. We have to take the good with the bad. And that's how it is with everything in life. Publish when you're ready, but publish. Your dreams are worthwhile. :D xxReplyDelete
Thank you so much for your words of encouragement! Right back at ya! (we all need a little from time to time)